Annyeong to all earthlings, Assalamualaikum again :) So now, I've decided to end this story. And this post is specially being typed for the final part of my story okay :) Thank you again for your visiting, reading, feedbacks.. seriously my blog stats increasing drastically. Thank you so much :) Anyway lets Pray for all flood victims hopefully they will always stay strong and can endure all tests given by Allah in Shaa Allah :) By the way, this post gonna be a bit longer than other parts okay, heheh :) 

How it Started (Final Part)

Anyway dearies, you know what ... I am so afraid to feel extremely happy because for sure the next day, I'll feel sad. Hahha, What a trip down to memory lane. Like seriously, when that day I felt so happy, turned red instantly, but the next day and for the upcoming days, I would break down in tears. Yeah well, on that time I still couldn't think maturely, still a kid. Hahha :) Anyway please, I never cry for him okay, sobbing around only! hahah, NVM forget it... 

So yeah 2012. We will face another one of our big examinations, PMR. And ofc, all of us would try harder for getting the best result for families,teachers and school :) And, I don't really remember what had happened during this year!~ :) Yeah nothing to be storied I guess. Cuz I've reminded myself that by hook or by crook I've to try forget him. I don't want to be labelled as 'perampas' or somewhat yang berkaitan dengannya. I want to have a normal life as others do. Focus on my big exam and forget all that worries. Create a better friendship, clean my soul from any 'dengki mendengki' :) 

So, during our PMR, I was not in the same class with him. Hehhe which meant that our class had been separated into two, so because my name is down to the bottom of my class name list, so I've to face the PMR in the next class :) After three weeks if I'm not mistaken, the PMR had ended. So yeahh!! Freedom! Hahha but still, we're not fully freedom because ofc, we were very afraid for the upcoming results soon. And, after that freedom day, teachers had organised and held some activities for us. Hmmm, I don't really remember when the event is, ahhah either after or before our PMR. Yes! Orienteering at Bukit Permata, Shah Alam :) Hhaha -betul ke bukit permata. I love this orienteering so much. Cuz what a great moment with my friends!~ :) When we were in the bus, we kept hearing to Ailee-I will show you and Day and Night- T-ara, I showed that two songs to Afira,Lyana and Farah. OMO we love that songs so much :) So, that's why that two songs had became a memorable song to me. When we reached the destination, the worker told us about 'orienteering' and what should and shouldn't be done there and so on lah. hehe. Then after a very long instructions, we started our orienteering activity. We were given only an or two hours to finish it. Act at first my group had performed well, but then .. ahhaha hancus. Because of the second clue,... so we already discover all the places, and already far away from others. Luckily not my group only, so we decided to cooperate to finish the orienteering activity cuz we knew that we gonna be lose. hahah ... we discovered 'perkampungan nyamuk' and like seriously that place is so scary!~ After tired searching, we finally reached at paintball place. And guess what no one there. Hahha, then, we sat and have a quick rest on the road. There're some visitors riding bicycle and a car, hahha what a funny moment and best moment with them,,, some of the visitors took our photos. On our way back,, after realising that the times up already, suddenly we saw a boy was riding a bicycle and based on his appearance we knew him, ahhah yeahhh M!, with a walkie talkie... he asked us to go back to the gathering place. Yeah well actually we already 'sesat' and thanks to him for taking us back :) 

And another best moments during this year are... ahhah so after PMR, we didn't have any activities nor study. But still, so called 'dilligent student' , I still came to school!~ Hahah, my classmates do too :) therefore, during two or three days left at school for that year, we wanted to create as much moments cuz there will be many of us that will change to another school or enter boarding schools. On the last day, as usual, we came to school and didn't enter our class. so we went to 'bilik kaunseling', There, we played 'congkak and batu seremban' ahahh. Act I'm a pro in that game,hahaha but when we were playing batu seremban along with him, I kept 'terjatuhkan batu seremban tu' and the loser!~ :) Hahah while others already enter the 4-5th game, I still couldn't manage to enter the second game. After that, we went to 'bilik bahasa' , the boys wanted to play PS2. While at that time I was only being accompanied by Afira, and they asked me to join them, so I join them played the game!~ OMO I couldn't describe how happy am I during that time, I was like... whoa this is the best moment I've ever have all this while. Especially when we were playing chess!!~ Just two with him :) Hahha but then Afira said to him, 'bila kau nak main chess dengan Lyana tak sabar tngk' hahaa yeah I wanted to see too, heheh :) But sokaylah, the most important I felt so happy during that time. Then, in the noon, our seniors held 'Jamuan Akhir Tahun Pengawas 2012'. For some reasons, I could say that they could even hold a better event. Keep fighting seniors :) . While we were cleaning the canteen, I couldn't see him anymore. Maybe he already went back, and I couldn't say anything. That day will be last day because he will change school the next year. 

One day, while tweeting with Ashikin and Farah during the holiday, Shikin suddenly said... 'Zu kau boleh laa stalk dia skrg, dia dah ada twitter' ... ahah Like seriously ? I told her. Then she said the he followed her and maybe he already followed me too. She asked me to search 'Mankind_kindman' haha, well I'm a bit 'poyo' at twitter so I don't followback people I don't know and I didn't even check who followed me. When I searched, I found that .. that account followed me. I still remember his twitcon, heheh therefore, I quickly followed him!~ :) So since that, we always tweeting together ,, :) And again, I couldn't describe how happy am I during that time. Till shikin said ... 'untunglaa dapat keep in touch'. Heheh!~ The day before our PMR result would be revealed, he once RT something like this .. but not exactly this tweet... but there are the points :) 'bila dah lama tak jumpa, bila nak jumpa balik rasa segan.' and she ... do RT that tweet too. That time I felt something and smelled something fishy. I couldn't sleep the whole night, I was very afraid,,, my result will be out tomorrow... I afraid that I couldn't achieve my target... hahah and during this whole night... I kept listening to '60 Seconds-Sunggyu and Rock Your Body-Vixx' to keep calm hehe. Oh yeahhhh the whole holiday ... my sister and I were enjoying Rangking King INFINITE!!!~ What a memorable moments. ahha okay forget it. Then the next day, our result already being revealed and Alhamdulillah I achieved my targets and Alhamdulillah most of my friends got 9A's :) 

All the straight A's students got a flower as an appreciation present from teachers. And each colours of the flowers only have four flowers. I got the yellow colour, and when I opened the twitter, I saw his cover picture, he was using the photo of the flower, and guess what!~ he got yellow too hehe, so that's mean me,farah,he and another one in 3B. What a coincidence yaa? :) 

and my story has came to its end :) I stalked his twitter like everyday!~ :) Hahah and there's a day, I saw he tweeted with she, and ... I just got know something. cuz she once tweeted this way 'bila dah berani tunjuk relay di public' , I just don't know.... it hurts... I felt like my heart broke into piece ,,, just only the day before.... I felt so happy and I told Farah about this. About how happy am I. On that moment ... I had just downloaded 'Yesterday-Dynamic Black', so after finishing downloading the song, I closed my laptop. I don't know how I felt at that moment. I just realised something, yeah... all this time,,, I was only 'SS' , and all the happy moments mean nothing to him, just for me. Maybe I was only his close friend, his friend, in his eyes. I told myself that way. Zuhairah why you think too far ... see what you have done to your own self. I sent a text to Farah at the midnight and told her. I can't stand ... and she was like.. ahah I thought you're going to convey something else during this midnight and keep calm dear friend. Hahha if you ask her, she still remember this moment :) Cuz actually it's funny :) ... so I listened to Yesterday because I just downloaded it. Act I wanted to calm myself,, but the lyrics of the song ... it made me broke in tears. All the joys,.. had became memories that I will remember... always :). How hard I've tried to throw away this feeling ... but just ... I can't. Even until now ... and yeah as I said before,,,, to look others, especially your friends happy, already enough and can make you happy thou. Even I am only a friend, I don't care now. And I'm happy already to know and meet him. To be his friend is already enough :) Will always pray for all my friends' happiness and success. Hopefully all of them can succeed and always happy 'dunia akhirat' :)

that's all... thank you guys. Appreciate it a lot :) I'm sorry cuz this one is a bit longer and maybe it takes time to fully loaded :)

Siti Zuhairah