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How it Started (Part 4)

I am that kind of people that doesn't really like to tell others about my stories. Hehhe so called an active blogger before this, I love to express my feeling in my blog. So, one day I decided to write about what I felt all this time in my personal blog. Not this blog, my other blog. Hehhe because I know I do have a number of followers which came from my classmates. I don't want them to know. Therefore I decided to write it in my personal blog. After some days, my classmates were talking about this. Yes about what I wrote in my blog. At first I felt weird. I was just wondering why they kept asking me ... 'zu siapa yang kau maksudkan dalam blog kau tu'. And I was wondering how could they know it. Where they knew my blog URL. As far as I know,,, they only know this blog URL. And most of my classmates which were close with her started to ignore me and 'menjauhkan diri' from me. I felt sad and regretted with what I've wrote and what I've done. I really don't want them to know. I really afraid that she would know about this. Because I afraid that I will lose my friends. Starting from that day, I knew they always talking about me. But I just ignored like I'm not talking about what they're thinking about. Not only girls, but my boy classmates also asked me.... who are they that you're talking about? I had such a bad day, I went home and kept thinking about what I've done. I shouldn't have to write it. Why I am so stupid and being too kiddy ... I didn't know how my day would be the next day. I 'gagahkan diri' and go to school as usual and 'niat hanya untuk belajar' for myself and ofc for my family. 'Ignore all that Zuhairah'! I whispered to myself. 

Since this day, I felt like everyone has started to dislike me, the biggest mistakes I've ever done. Feeling blue like everyday already being part of my life. People talking about you wherever you go already like a normal thing for me. But, I know I still have friends. I don't care what would they said, being nice to others as I can :) keep smiling and study is the first thing I've to look forward more. So, there is one day, yeah after that day, I felt very 'janggal' to talk with Lyana alone. IDK why, I felt too small to be compared with her. She is such a very beautiful girl, an idol,clever,smart, flawless!! So, this one day, I called my mom using public phone in my school, after that I saw her alone, so I approached her. so I say hi,,, then she asked me, 'siapa ambik zu?' , mak kott hehe, I replied. Then she continued , kenapa tak suruh MR .H hantar, tu dia kat sana?', I was very shocked hearing to her answer, is she knew about that... OMO what should I do,,, and what should I answer, hahah apa pulak. I just replied that. Then, she smiled and went away from me. Went down stairs left me behind. I felt very guilty,, so after I went home, quickly deleted the post. Please I don't want them to treat me this way, I rather to feel hurt inside than to loose my friend, than to be treated this way, it was even more hurt. Yeah, just because of that post, I regret... why I didn't think about the consequences, why? I know that every cloud has its silver lining. 'Redha' with what was happening is the best. 

And I remember this one day, we attended our extended class, for decorating our class, heheh ... we were 'juara bertahan' yeah... painted the mural in front of our class. and that painted mural is still there in the class...it's memorable. Whenever I enter that class and saw that mural... I chuckled. Yeah ofc, there's a moment during that too :) While painting the mural with Afira,Lyana,Farah,Akhma and maybe there're some others, 'I' approached me and said, Zu nak nombor kau. I was like hahha okay bukan kau dah ada ke ... After that moment, M and I came and they pulled out their phone. So I just gave them my number. I gave around two or three ahaha but the real only one :) Then, both of them went out from the class, when they came back, they sat on the table behind us. Hhaha then there're something happen between we girls here, but... I shouldn't tell it here maybe, not that worse lah hehe, just teasing gituu. 

Yeah, the most happy moment when I was in form two is ofc.... 'Kem Perdana Pengawas' :) . Hahaha although there's nothing special had happened, but I just feel happy :) And then 'Jamuan Akhir Tahun Pengawas'. Yeah the night before, M sent me a message regarding the 'jamuan'. Hahah I replied thanks and anyway who is this, he didn't anwer... ahhah but I know you the one that sent. Hehhe oh yeah, there's one, he sent me a message too, he asked me about GEO homework, and I replied yee buat tu anyway ni siapa? He didn't reply, hehe... such a boy lah :) I like his mysterious characteristic :) Yeah about that jamuan, the moment I attended the party, I was like... ahhahahahah why is that everyone was wearing a sport wear... while I wore 'baju kurung' already. Yaalah suited the theme. Gratefully that not I'm the only one, farah and Anisah too. Our seniors said that actually we had to wear  'baju sukan + track' in the morning for sports. Hahha what a funny moment. we were very ashamed. Yeahh only three of us. Because of that.. we couldn't any of the activities. But then, Kak Farra asked us to join her group, maybe she felt sympathy, haahha poor us lah. Macam apa dah dok menengok je. Hahha. Then M and Aliff said,,, aik pakai baju kurung pun nak main game jugak ke'. Ignoring their teasing and joined the game. :) Lastly, there was a photography slot, I was standing far away from my bff ahahha, she stood in front while I at the back. Suddenly M came and  stood in front of me. But, because I don't any rumours again, so gerak jauh sikit. Unfortunately Cikgu Nasir already gave an instruction so we had to get ready. Just stood a bit far. Hhaha and the photo now is in GEMERSIK and whenever I look at the picture, I remember that moment... hehhe. I'm so happy. yeahh :) 

Alright guys, that was the end of that year. There were many best moments and yet, sobbing moments there are too :) And yes.... Form two was the year that we can paint the town red and let the hair down, next year? PMR !!! Hahha , so that's all :) Till we meet at the next part :) Thank you for reading. Just a piece of advice ... yes guys, and again, reminding you, our vision in life is try to make others happy because by making others happy you could be happy too :)

SITI ZUHAIRAH